Monday, September 19, 2005

Byebye

Have u ever came across ppl in ur life who r so-called your frens but they nvr seem to be interested in finding more about u as a person/or concerned abt u?

These ppl will nvr arrange to meet up wif u in person n think its your responsibility to ask them out.
These ppl will only msg u to talk when they r feeling troubled n wan to share their troubles wif u. Its always themselves, themselves and themselves. Makes u wonder at times whether they r more interested in u as a listening ear or interested in you as a good fren.
They nvr bother to find out more abt wat u do in your life or wat who u r as a person.
They feel that they trust u as their good fren as tt's good enough, trust u to tell u their stuff. Who needs their trust when they nvr show u any interest or concern? Are we suppose to be honoured that they trust us?
They'll only come to u when they need help n are never around when u need help.
These ppl are too blinded to see their own self-centered behaviour n realise how irritating it is.

Conclusion: There is no point hanging around or making friends wif this type of ppl, cause they only noe how to take you for granted....... i'm sorry, for i like myself too much to tolerate being treated like tt. Byebye.

Saturday, September 03, 2005

thx a lot xz =)

everything's finally ok..... have been veri tiring for e past 3 days.............

veri worried n unhappie these few days.................... cause mum is not realli feeling veeri well.... in fact i would use e word feeling quite bad will be more appropriate...... Tuesday nite i pei her go to this doctor near my house.......... in e end juz gave more medication. of coz eat liao didn't get better, in fact got a bit worse. ok these few weeks my mum was diagnosed wif high blood pressure... so she's prescribed some medicine which is suppose to keep blood pressure low......... but since she started taking tt medicine, she begin to be cmi liao....... in fact she feels veri weak, so she needs to lie down then got headache, dizziness. so in e end e clinic doctor juz gave me painkillers for her headache n some anti drowisness pills............ WHICH obviously is not solving e root of e problem....... more medicine = more weak = more sick so last nite became quite serious then we decided to go hospital in e middle of e nite......

can't say e amount of gratitude when xz drove me n my mum to SGH at such a late hour. n tt he pei me for abt 2.5 hrs waiting there. if he wasn't there i'll die of fatigue n boredom waiting for 5 hours. reach there liao turn out that my mum was obviously not well so we got a wheel chair for her ............ then transferred to this bed n moved into e A n E room for e doctor to see......... obviously quite serious la, looking at her face she looks damn sick.. so was quite worried loh.......... then took a lot of time to take x-ray urine test blood test n watever la. so i waited damn looooooooooooooooooong until can die. then in e end at 5 e doctor decided to keep her in e wonderful SGH for observation......... diagnosis was quite simple.......... turns out that these few weeks since she got diagnosed wif high blood pressure, my mum decided to lessen her intake of salt by a considerable amount then on top of this, those prescribed high blood pressure pills depleted e salt content somemore, aggravating e problem.. ------------------> serious deficiency in salt content.

ok there n then, now she's getting better le.

sigh............................. last nite as i took a short stroll back thought of quite a few things la........... in e end feel quite sad in a way. here i am, soon to be 23 years old, still cannot provide luxury n comfort for my mum.............. she needs to provide for me tt's y she has to work n her work is tiring...... =S sigh she so old liao, i dun even haf a car to drive her to hospital when she's not feeling well. i wonder when i can even afford to get a car to drive her around instead of making her take public transport all e time............ then in e end when she stay in hospital still have to choose C class ward so tt can save money........... i feel useless. suddenly i felt wat i've always felt in my childhood, that i badly wan to grow up fast n provide good things n comfort for my mum. cause she has realli realli endured enough hardships for her life. considering now tt she's 59 n she went to work at e age of 16, she's worked for abt 43 years consec........

maybe at this point of time i haf to juz pray, pray that she still has enough time to wait for me to 孝顺 her back in return............enough time for her to see me graduate, get married, bao my kids and sit in my car........ if not i'll realli regret for e rest of my life.

thx to everyone who showed me concern n support. especially ting. =)