These few days haven't been good. was actually quite disappointed wif myself......... shrug, i dunno why but i juz shrug e disappointment off me. seems to be shadowing me. =(
things always seem to turn out the way u dun wan it to turn out. sigh............................................ i wish i could have been more confident abt myself then instead of slightly panicking on e spot. felt so dwarf then............ dunno suddenly flooded by a lot of thoughts in my mind. maybe i wasn't really so confident abt myself. i mean within me bah tt's y during times of stress maybe tt's y it doesn't come through. seems to be a crash down on my confidences lvls........................... thought i will come out strong again, i juz think this incident made me feel a lot abt my inadequacies.
its such a small incident and i can't shake it off my mind........... seems to come back persistently. maybe i'm juz perturbed by the fact that i can actually fumble like tt........ makes me wonder how i'm going to fulfill my dreams n ambitions noeing that failure along the way is inevitable. The me now simply is not good enough in terms of attitude i guess. Muz buck up. Nod. its always nicer when ting is around me, i seem to draw more strength from her i guess cause i noe i can't let myself down like tt. e rest is realli realli up to myself i guess.
Watever the outcome, i'm still disappointed at the way i've coped wif it.
Monday, October 31, 2005
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
worrying
Hehe, its 406 am now n i can't go to sleep. Lesson is at 9 am tml in business haha think its because i've been sleeping at 6am for e past few days. Was lying around in bed n stuff. Had some thoughts in my mind so blog loh :)
Actually these few days i was wondering a few things...........i think our lives in general have some stressful periods n some non-stressful ones as well. For some periods, we lead a carefree life cause there is nothing for us to worry. Other times, i guess no matter how hard we try, there is always something for us to worry. I guess its how we cope wif this form of worrying bah.
Juz take for example the studying semester, as it approaches the end stress seems to kinda build up. hmmm, i think it kinda builds up as accumulative worrying bah. I bet its inevitable in everyone ya? Like worrying whether revision will be finished, worrying abt a very difficult chapter or module which we still haven't grasp. worrying if we have slacked too much, worrying if we will pass our interviews, worrying about money, worrying about a whole of things. Tt's exam period for me.
I guess its how we cope wif it bah, its better to not brood over such things right? so 加油 everyone ya? should focus more on actions to pia rather than worrying excessively. =D hahah feels better blogging those thoughts out. i guess in life we juz do our best right? n hope things turn out well. =) i think i muz learn to be more 看得开 in e form of studies. ys is a good example =) sometimes i realli envy him for his carefree attitude.
Heheh take care everyone =) hahahah blog veri soon again! =)
Actually these few days i was wondering a few things...........i think our lives in general have some stressful periods n some non-stressful ones as well. For some periods, we lead a carefree life cause there is nothing for us to worry. Other times, i guess no matter how hard we try, there is always something for us to worry. I guess its how we cope wif this form of worrying bah.
Juz take for example the studying semester, as it approaches the end stress seems to kinda build up. hmmm, i think it kinda builds up as accumulative worrying bah. I bet its inevitable in everyone ya? Like worrying whether revision will be finished, worrying abt a very difficult chapter or module which we still haven't grasp. worrying if we have slacked too much, worrying if we will pass our interviews, worrying about money, worrying about a whole of things. Tt's exam period for me.
I guess its how we cope wif it bah, its better to not brood over such things right? so 加油 everyone ya? should focus more on actions to pia rather than worrying excessively. =D hahah feels better blogging those thoughts out. i guess in life we juz do our best right? n hope things turn out well. =) i think i muz learn to be more 看得开 in e form of studies. ys is a good example =) sometimes i realli envy him for his carefree attitude.
Heheh take care everyone =) hahahah blog veri soon again! =)
Saturday, October 08, 2005
sorry for the extended blogging break
lol Dear frens, thx for repeatedly coming to my blog to check for new entries only to be let down time n time again in recent weeks. =) hahah was 50% busy and 50% lazy to blog since there's not much happening stuff going on in my life.
Firstly, to ppl who dun get to see me often but read my blog often to catch up wif me, (e.g. jiahao) i'm doing veri fine in school n in everything in general. Its been nice to work in project groups consisting of nice ppl this sem...... haha makes the hard work part much more enjoyable i would say.
Realise that compared to a lot of ppl around me, i realli dun seem to have much commitments in my life to burden me down. In short i lead a carefree life. haha 5 modules, (one lab nonexaminable, one engin prof, and one mno, all relaxing modules) no tuition, no cca, no gf means that i have a lot of time left for myself. =) perhaps tt's y i can afford to sleep in lecture n skip them w/o too much consideration as i will eventually haf time to catch up on my work.
Been very thrifty recently, seriously have my first savings in the month of september after like 3 years? ya wan to save up for a lot of stuff. so cut down on expensive food, necessary drinks and stuff.
Feeling happie n contented to some extent, i mean though life is monotonous i still find it meaningful to do stuff for my frens around me and spend more time with them when they need it. =D looking forward to meeting up with u guys: jiahao, xueni especially. take care everyone, i love u guys lotsz.
Firstly, to ppl who dun get to see me often but read my blog often to catch up wif me, (e.g. jiahao) i'm doing veri fine in school n in everything in general. Its been nice to work in project groups consisting of nice ppl this sem...... haha makes the hard work part much more enjoyable i would say.
Realise that compared to a lot of ppl around me, i realli dun seem to have much commitments in my life to burden me down. In short i lead a carefree life. haha 5 modules, (one lab nonexaminable, one engin prof, and one mno, all relaxing modules) no tuition, no cca, no gf means that i have a lot of time left for myself. =) perhaps tt's y i can afford to sleep in lecture n skip them w/o too much consideration as i will eventually haf time to catch up on my work.
Been very thrifty recently, seriously have my first savings in the month of september after like 3 years? ya wan to save up for a lot of stuff. so cut down on expensive food, necessary drinks and stuff.
Feeling happie n contented to some extent, i mean though life is monotonous i still find it meaningful to do stuff for my frens around me and spend more time with them when they need it. =D looking forward to meeting up with u guys: jiahao, xueni especially. take care everyone, i love u guys lotsz.
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