Wednesday, June 22, 2005

a helping hand

sometimes when one is realli down n suffering from major depression, he too can't help himself nor keep his depressed mood under control. no matter how hard he tries, no matter how much we encourage him to 振作. i understand it well cause i've been there b4. e feeling of being swept into e big sea by waves.................e feeling of helplessness n e feeling of struggling to keep ourselves afloat.

some ppl may not understand y they can't help themselves or pull themselves out of this misery that they r self-inflicting on themselves. they dun understand cause they haven't been there b4.........

sometimes certain things happen......they affect us a lot.........we changed....................we dun love ourselves that much anymore............its because things dun work out, so we put blame on ourselves, blame ourselves for not being good enough, for not being good enough to deserve wat we ought to deserve. its this self-blame that prevents us from helping ourselves when we need it e most. we indulge in self-pity, that magnitude of hurt of noeing that we r not good enough, torturing us every minute, making our heart bleed.

this is e time when they'll stretch out their hands to find ppl to help them, help them find back themselves..........its an inevitable proces - they need ppl around them to support them so that they can start to love themselves again. all they need is a lot of time n support.

so rem to stretch out ur hands to help those ppl in need of our help ya? its worthwhile e effort i assure u. thru e downs of our lives, we learn more in e process. for me, ever since that period i've loved myself much much more than b4.... so now its my turn to stick out a helping hand. Grab it! =)

6 comments:

阿穎 said...

Is this entry meant for a certain someone only?

xingyou said...

nah, its not. juz in general. hehehe cause i realise a lot of ppl around us need our support n help. =)

阿穎 said...

that's nice...don't know why when I read this post, I started crying...

xingyou said...

=) ya, it think it has touched on a veri sensitive issue. which is how much we realli love ourselves. n how when we love others more than ourselves n get hurt in e process, we start to not love ourselves tt much anymore. sigh, we haf to look forward n be positive ya? cause w/o love for urself, we can no longer see e real ourselves again. =) i'm here for u also ya?

阿穎 said...

thank you...*sheds a tear*

xingyou said...

hugz :)