disappointed

These few days haven't been good. was actually quite disappointed wif myself......... shrug, i dunno why but i juz shrug e disappointment off me. seems to be shadowing me. =(

things always seem to turn out the way u dun wan it to turn out. sigh............................................ i wish i could have been more confident abt myself then instead of slightly panicking on e spot. felt so dwarf then............ dunno suddenly flooded by a lot of thoughts in my mind. maybe i wasn't really so confident abt myself. i mean within me bah tt's y during times of stress maybe tt's y it doesn't come through. seems to be a crash down on my confidences lvls........................... thought i will come out strong again, i juz think this incident made me feel a lot abt my inadequacies.

its such a small incident and i can't shake it off my mind........... seems to come back persistently. maybe i'm juz perturbed by the fact that i can actually fumble like tt........ makes me wonder how i'm going to fulfill my dreams n ambitions noeing that failure along the way is inevitable. The me now simply is not good enough in terms of attitude i guess. Muz buck up. Nod. its always nicer when ting is around me, i seem to draw more strength from her i guess cause i noe i can't let myself down like tt. e rest is realli realli up to myself i guess.

Watever the outcome, i'm still disappointed at the way i've coped wif it.