its been quite long since i've blogged. =) to everyone who was concerned abt me........ i'm fine thank you.
i'm soon to be 24 liao.............. i'm worried................. maybe its because i'll soon reach this new phase in my life. i'm worried cause i realise that i'm not as positive abt life as i was when i juz completed national service............i believed i've changed a lot in other ways too............ i have ended up more closed-up, and very unwilling to share my feelings wif others anymore.... Some of these changes are good, some of them aren't................. and they occur as a result of a combination of circumstances and my then too innocent perspective of life and reality.
Last year this time i was in severe depression............ maybe to many of u it may sound like juz a period of time when i was easily affected by events and simply perhaps taking things too hard for my own good. Maybe i've seemed alright to everyone around me..........................i realli wasnt. It was really the trough of my life.............. for once perhaps i found that i'm realli unable to help myself nor control my feelings..........It was a helpless feeling......... for once i've totally lost my confident self. At that point of time, i realised that i realli wasn't strong enough to work hard n strive for my dreams......
Then i almost totally lost my sense of selfworth............. ya i noe.......... i chose this painful path myself......i've nvr regretted it.... i was in love wif a wonderful gal =)........ and through this i've learned the most painful lesson of my life: in this short span of life, there's only a handful of ppl who can realli see the special u and truly appreciate u as who u are. N these are the very ppl who will cherish ur existence, love to be wif u...... and 疼 u. So cherish these ppl, shower them wif love! =) the rest u can juz ask them to f*** off............... as in juz move on wif our lives and leave them behind us....
The value of ourselves ........................................ is given and defined by ourselves! =)
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i feel like i'm u a yr ago..i'm glad u had it all sorted out...any tips? haha
haa, serious? :) think e first thing u need to do is to take a break from everything n then think abt wat u realli wan. sounds easy but it isn't.
But what if I already did that and I know what I want and the thing I want is something I can never have? Then what?
if things r still possible n u love her a lot, u should do ur best to zhen qu. However if things r impossible, i suggest u juz go do wat i did then. Which is to bite ur lips, walk away then wish her happiness. Cause if u realli love her, her happiness is all tt mattters :) as for e rest of e things, juz leave it to fate to see if things will be possible wif her at a future date or another fantastic gal comes along for u.
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