disappointment

todae is quite a depressing day for me........................................ recently found that its realli quite easy for me to feel down easily...... Maybe its because all the bad things are actually piling up at one go....... Wat to do? i guess juz bite e bullet loh............................

i realise that i've been wrong................i've been too naive......... i guess i can't expect ppl to show concern n cherish me for who i am.........no matter how hard i try, i can't make them appreciate me more or become geniunely interested in me........... i've failed.......... maybe its time to move on n find new ppl in my life..............ppl who realli loves me for who i am n won't take e things i do for them as granted..........

Sometimes i feel veri frustrated when i think how unfair this world is ........................ y do the undeserved ppl always get more.......... y do ppl give preferential treatment to certain ppl.................... ya i noe i shouldn't compare ya i noe i shouldn't whine ya i noe i shouldn't be too kan bu kai, i noe i can't expect to haf everything i wan......................... But issit realli too much to ask for e small little things i feel i deserve?!?

todae morning was super saddening when i realise that i realli do miss angela's (my best fren at exxon) company a lot.................. cause she realli makes me feel good everyday, she appreciates all e things i do for her n most importantly she makes me feel that i deserve everything wonderful in this world. This type of fren is extremely hard to come by........

its very disappointing to noe that when i'm sick, the ppl close to me r not e ones showing me concern..............., i have to eat alone cause non of my frens are free to meet up wif me for even once a week for many weeks, when u write a book for someone its dunno left in the mess of the room, when u tell someone u need something badly its all forgotten cleanly, worklife is sometimes veri unhappie n now angela's gone, and ppl taking u for granted.

maybe e problem lies wif me...................................