river of life

where e river of life brings me, i do not know. i will not swim against e currents cause that may drown me. perhaps following e flow will bring me to some place veri beautiful.............in e end. =)

interesting dota clan nicks

hehe, its quite interesting to decipher my dota clan nicks.......

Clan name: i.have.no.clan (IHNC)
members:
i.have.no.life - me (cause i dun not haf a life n 沉迷于 mass dota everynite regardless of school term or holidays.)
i.have.no.god - nic (hahaha this one easy to decipher cause he's a free thinker)
i.have.no.sleep - matt (cause matt realli doesn't sleep when he's veri into projects or games)
i.have.no.balls - jeffery (hahaha contrary to his nick, he's realli e most pro dota player i realli respect)
i.have.no.guts - weijie (weijie is another choingster who makes his opponents haf no guts haha i remed ys said tt to him when they were on different teams)
i.have.no.cash - minjie (cause his bank account is damn full n he's i.have.alotof.credit.)
i.have.no.micro - xianzhi (ok xz's micro needs improving also :P)
i.have.no.skill - weixiang (hahaha this one veri direct liao)
i.have.no.sex - danny (this one's veri interesting hahaha obviously its not veri true la)
i.have.no.hair - merv (hahaha i guess this is because merv doesn't haf much hair? :S)
i.have.no.frens - ys (cause he tends to fly aeroplane n 重色轻友）
i.have.no.gal(haven't join yet cause he's in china) - jiahao (cause he has no gf haha)
i.have.no.clan - yuanli (cause when he thought of that he didn't noe its e clan name haha)

lol, anyone wans to jio a clan match? 5 v 5 =p i will say we r not bad hahaha probabilty of winning X 100 times when no.balls is playing.

Hail e winning spirit!

haha after several days of procastination to change my blog template, i decided that i'll take e easy way out n use my old blog template until i find e mood n e patience to go do up something tt's nice. =) hence its good to be back again ya? in e blogging spirit.

Summary of e past few days: Liverpool won e champs league on thursday morning................

A veri pekchek thing that happen on wed nite: i was out wif ting having a marvellous dinner at some area of chinatown which i apparaently nvr been there b4. ok, we were having a nice stroll when we came across this 7-11 store that had a singapore pools betting station linked to e counter which is operated by e cashier. wat luck i thought, destined for me to place a bet, somemore it will make viewing e match a little more exciting since i've staked something on it. i look at e odds n decided on e draw. it reads 3.10. ok nvm i passed my betting slip to e cashier n guess wat? he told me that e counter for betting was closed. i was shocked..........not when OBVIOUSLY on e betting screen it says bets will be closed at 11pm. i looked at ting's watch n it was 9 plus.........zzzzzz then i gave that cashier an irritated look because i knew its obviously possible to bet juz tt he's too lazy n tell me that e counter is closed. damn, y my luck so suay one..........so i was sian diao n left e shop........

AS it turned out, e match finished full time as a 3-3 draw...........hahaha ok anyway i onli place a 10 bucks bet so e opport cost was a 21 buck payout............not a lot of money a lot of ppl will say....so since e money is negligible i should not be so 计较。but my opinion of this is not reali abt e money involved...........its for e feeling that i got a prediction right n to prove that my track record on betting this type of things is quite good. =) of coz i dun indulge in 100s of bucks in bet cause i dun wanna 沉迷 wif too much betting. cause i dun need to take risk wif that amount of money. but e 21 bucks made me sore..................it will haf sponsered a wonderful sting ray treat i'm planning for ting. KNS.

ok lesson learnt from liverpool: if u wan something, believe in it till e end........fight for wat u deserve n at e end of it, victory will ultimately be urs to savour............there will be times where it is easy to lose hope, succumbing to it will inevitably bring disappointment. sadly, e eleventh hour is always there to test e faith of true winners.........w/o coming from 0-3 down to draw 3 -3, will victory be half as sweet perhaps? Hail Liverpool, e champions of Europe............

Champions league final beckons.......

hehehe, the final game of champions league is juz a day away. It will be a clash of e titans....................e reds of england against e reds of italy. hehehe, nope i dun support either milan nor liverpool.........always been a neutral supporter who supports fantastic play rather than e teams. ok la, muz cherish e last game of e football season in europe. a bit sad cause this year got no world cup nor euro..........

kk, hereby offering my e comfort of my house for those who wans to watch this epic game together....... =) hehe personally, i tip liverpool to snatch the title. hahaha we shall see ya? after watching psv almost singlehandedly demolishing milan in e semis, i dun haf much confidence in them. hahah look out for e crucial midfield battle between gattuso n gerrad. =) cheers.

supper

hehehe, converted my blog back to its old layout. that was after a futile attempt to get a new blog template i found that was quite nice to publish. hahaha, this time haf to employ xz's help again to help me get things fixed. so rem to stay tuned for e lastest changes. *abish*

hehe, life is carefree nowadays.........kinda understand wat everyone is going thru nowadays. wif no job no commitment, we basically juz slack thru the days of our lives. hehehe, i like e way things r now.......it feels good not to fret abt wat time to wake up, i juz sleep as long as i wan n wake up when i feel like it. lol, that's freedom for me.

it feels veri good to be close again to someone who's veri veri veri special...=) i'll cherish more of the future that is to come.

Since monday, i'd set a new record ------------- 6 consec nites of supppppppppppper. hahaha, anyway recently my complexion is worsening =(. should be attributed to e amount of OILY, UNHEALTHY, JUNK food that i eat. hahahaha, sometimes right all my meals for consecutive days r junk. Kk, though recently i've been cutting down a lot on e amount of KFC i eat, i haf began to eat other types of fried food, etc etc. ok la eccentric meal patterns + shitty food = hahaha veri unhealthy xingyou. Ate prata, nasi lemak, kfc, western food, prata, western food, 五香 mee goreng. blahblahblah. ooooooo no wonder my complexion is getting horrendous. hahahha luckily gals go for character more than looks bah. Phew, i'm saved.

This morning i went to market wif minjie n ATE pork PORRIDGE. =D hehehe, muz 保养 a bit mah this week going out wif someone nice neh. =) e good thing for me is no matter how much i seem to eat, i can't gain much weight........... hahaha, i wonder whether that is good or bad. hmmm hehehe nvm la i juz eat n eat. bet some of u r envious now. *punch* take care guys! =)

blog reconstruction in progress

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random thoughts

oooooooo, juz reached home from supper alone. hehehe went to toh guan to haf prata then back home again. totally enjoyed e walk n e fresh air around me.

Random thoughts are flooding my mind now. hehehe so i shall blog "randomly" as well. i came to realise a law of life seems to be "nvr try to swim against e currents" i suppose everything in life happens for a reason..........so we juz haf to take things as it is ya? This approach of taking everything easily n allowing things to happen naturally w/o becoming too involved or attached to e outcome seems to be a hidden recipe of success. be it in studies sports love friends bah. its not difficult to observe that this mental approach has determined e success paths of many ppl in the course of their lives.

Life is simple, so we shouldn't try to complicate it, agree? Life is abt living each moment to e fullest, n being happie.......i'm sure if one can live in e moment truely, he/she can attain a kind of spiritual well-being n peacefulness within ourselves. heheh as i'm blogging, i live in this wonderful moment n i'm contented wif wat my life has to offer me. =) wat abt u guys?

this morning i woke up i cried......a lot a lot.....to be honest i also didn't noe e reason y i cried..........it juz came veri naturally. it wasn't a feeling of sadness n despair, rather it was because i felt veri 感动。at that moment, i was thinking of wat has happened to me in e previous one year.........how ting was always there for me w/o fail.
When i'm down she talks to me on e phone.
When i'm down she keeps me company by going out for meals wif me.
When i've got problems wif schoolwork, she teaches me everything n does her best to help.
When i dun go to school, she updates me on everything that is going on.
When i send her home, her presence showers me wif so much happiness.
When i'm in despair n feeling lousy, she reminds me of how fantastic a person i am.
n many many more.

hehehe i realise that i tend to blog abt ting a lot. i hope its not boring n stuff for u ppl. i guess perhaps e frequency of how much i blog abt her cause she's in my thoughts at those moments are an indication of how important she is in my life to me. Not to mention e countless no of fantastic frens i got to noe through her, like yz, alice, pj, jw, bq

Wat more can i ask from life when everything is so wonderful for me?

i think of ting.

i smile n i'm contented =D

bon voyage ting =)

Interesting quote from ting's fren:
"For a r/s between a gal n guy to work well, e guy muz love e gal a lot n e gal muz understand e guy a lot"
Hehehe, sounds right doesn't it? =)

BREEKS!!!!! hehehe i love breeks........always love e food there :) wat a great dinner i had.. *rubs tummy* hehehe i ate some fish main course which by now i've forgotten abt e name liao. LOL. hahahah cost me abt 12.50 inclusive of service charge, makes me veri happie leh. cheap somemore. Of coz, the company was great!!!! =) wat an eventful day.

hahaha besides that i did another thing i love a lot todae! =) which is to go to bookstores. hahahah actually i went for e past two days liao - friday went to mph at raffles city then todae went to kino at taka. hehehe next time anyone wans a siao bookstore fanatic for company can JIO me go ok? hehehehe, i juz simply love that environment.

oh the coming week is going to be lonely cause ting is heading for hongkong for holiday for a week! think she's boarding her flight now as i'm blogging. BON VOYAGE sis!!! korkor hope u enjoy ur shopping there! =) hugz. hope to cya soon sis!

'Us' n 'Them'

oooooo, hehehe i changed my blog template!!!! though i dun think that its a nicer blog template, but its still a veri refreshing change ya? in e short run, i'll keep this blog template while i take my time to look for one that is veri nice for e long run. quote: "nothing is permanent except change" =)

yeah, i'm back to e happie xingyou that u guys always knew :) 真的好开心。oh went to watch kingdom of heaven wif ting at causeway point on wed nite. (went causeway point cause cathay still 6.50 n we both wanna save money) hehehe was so fun loh..............time out wif someone special. anyway e tix cost 13 bucks in total, quite cheap we thought so we decided we will get a nacho's combo.

Ok, e nacho's combo cost $5.50. consist of some chips, an abundance of hot cheese as well as a drink. Sounds nice? nah, not when u see e drink is only of regular size, like mac's smallest coke size =S n e chips were pathetic........not to mention e hot cheese that didn't taste like cheese. *rantles on n on* but wat a waste of money, end up me n ting bought another drink for 2.20 cause e miserable regular size drink wasn't enough. end up e stupid nacho's combo spoilt my movie trip wif ting. but everything's lovely wif her around, tt's for sure. So lesson learnt, NO MORE NACHO'S COMBO ok ting? hehehehe

back to e show, for those who haven't watch it i recommend u go do so n for those who haf watched it, i haf some deep thoughts to share wif each one of u. Since the birth of this blog, i'll abstain from blogging abt my views on religion............maybe its time now to shed some light on how i feel abt these things. i'm a free thinker, so i dun not possess abt form of biasness towards any religion. They r all equal in my eyes. i've always respected ppl's choice of religion as well as all the religions.

i came to observe that a certain form of conflict exist in our world, be it abt religion or other stuff, stems from e inability of ppl to accomodate another group of ppl wif different lifestyles or different views. its a central theme from e module of geopolitics that i took last sem.

"The essential moment of geopolitical discourse is the division of space into 'our' place n 'their place', its political function is being to incorporate n regulate 'us' from 'them', the same from 'the other' "

E movie did bring up some thoughts that i've always been pondering... how do the muslim world see e christians in the present? how does christians view them back in return? can they accomodate e existance of each other? who does their god say abt each other? say abt buddhism n other religions? wat does buddha think abt all this?

Who's in e right religion n who's in e wrong religion? christians as well as muslims n buddhist will stand up n claim that their one path is e right one. but are they in e position to judge who's right n who's wrong? perhaps to them, it didn't occur that only e ppl outside of this can see e whole picture clearly..............can e christian community accept a person who has a muslim bf? can e muslim community do so vice versa? wat abt free thinkers? we can accept n respect e respective religions but can they do so in return? its obvious here that its e effect of regulation of us from them again.

E theme of e show is glaring..................................i cannot say that i'm a free thinker also i guess. cause i haf a religion of my own - e religion of e heart. A religion which i cannot go against my own conscience n my moral code. In this lifetime, i shall do good n no evil and if god doesn't understand this, then he is not my god.....tonite i'll pray that the world can be more accomodating to ppl who r different in theirs of views n perceptions. i'm sure it will be made more beautiful with less regulation of 'us' from 'them'. Cause for each one of 'us', there exist a mirror image of the 'other' juz that both are in different situations. i shall leave u fellas to ponder on ur own. =)

0420hrs

As e title of my entry suggests, e time now is 420am. Wat a nice time in the nite to be awake, so much tranquility around me.......i feel at peace. =) shall capture this moment down in this entry bah.

Todae was sweet. i chatted wif stella on msn juz b4 i left for dinner. Not much time to catch up wif her though, but we agreed to meet up for dinner together these few days. A spark to realli brighten up my day. *wide smile* hehehe i wonder how she's like le, bet she's still as lovely as i noe she is. realli looking forward to it in some sense.

hahaha, was dotaing halfway at abt 3pm juz now. looked around at my house n it was simply in a mess. so i wanted to give it a well deserved clean-up n matt's frens thought i'm an gay because i'm wanted to take a break to do some housework. Zzzzzzzzz, they dun seem veri polite do they? hahahah, an untidy house reali kinda messes up my mood to some extent. ok its veri untidy cause my brother took leave to come back home from taiwan for 5 days. u should see e state of my house b4 n after he came back. hahahaha i'm sure it will leave u pondering whether a storm swept through bukit batok west avenue 8.

oh after a heart to heart talk wif my mum on monday nite, i told her that i've decided not to go back to malaysia (originally planned to leave on this thursday) Was kinda frank wif her n i think she was veri surprised n glad that i'm voicing out some of my thoughts to her. oh, i juz told her that recently i'm not in e best of moods so i thought it will do me more good to stay around wif my circle of frens rather than going to visit my cousins who r working n might not haf time to pei me. hmmm, so tt's e good news - i can go for 65 class outing on saturday nite le. =) bet u guys miss me a lot after i skipped e last few gatherings. (will be taking nic's car btw) hahaha

A veri enjoyable way to spend my free time is to read e blogs of my close frens that i share my life so intimately wif. its a wonderful feeling to read abt the things that u do together wif them from their perspective. Take for example, e fantastic feeling of reading xz's blog which he expressed a lot of appreciation for tt present i got for him (some more i passed to him on e last day of exams) n considering that my financial status is not realli in a good shape (n e present wasn't veri cheap) now, it feels good to be appreciated. hehehe, juz read merv's n joanne's blog. nicenice :)

hehe, in a veri happie mood now thinking of ting at this moment. wat a big difference she has made to my life. i feel so much warmth n so cherished when she's around. =) 婷妹，korkor will veri 疼你，k? hehe k veri late le i go sleep liaozzzz. =)

vulgarities

HAHAHAHAHA, e time now is 526 am n i've juz finished my 10th dota game todae. hehehe, stayed at home e whole day. (one dota game averages 1hr++) hehehe, was so fun........ decided to blog now cause i've suddenly got e inspiration to blog!!!! after some many sucky entries abt me n my own self centered world, i finally thought of a nice topic to discuss. =)

hehehe, i shall on a veri interesting topic vulgarities or so called "bad words". i've came up wif a typical scenario that has happened time n time again.

conversation between guy 1, me n a gal:

guy1 (to xy): wah something cock up happen liao........that stupid person go did something idiotic to screw things up.
xy: WAT??!!?? Wat did that CB do?
gal1: (looks at xy in disbelief) wah u use vulgar language....................i didn't noe u were such a person u noe?
xy: ...............................................................

Another society stereotype...............i tried to debate my case in front of gal1 but to no avail. hahaha my impression of her has been tarnished. Who cares. hahahah
No, i dun advocate the persistant n massive use of vulgar language in everyday life. Some ppl like to use vulgar language for e sake of showing them off........they use it in inappropriate contexts n also quite frequently. sickening.

i'm a normal guy. i didn't grow up in a refined family, rather i came from a humble background. e only exception was that i did get good grades to get into good schools that's all. A lot of ppl debate that ppl start to use more vulgarities ever since they got into the army............i think it may be so n it may also not be so. From wat i learnt from e army, some seldom usage of vulgar language is a good form of expression of one's feelings n thoughts. its an avenue for us to vent certain forms of frustration n pekchekness. but one thing is for sure, when i use it in everyday life, there is no malice intended on my part........its juz a way of expressing myself.

I feel that life shouldn't be too restrictive.............we shouldn't impose too many restrictions onto ourselves ---- sometimes these same restrictions only serve to make us suffer more in a certain way. Quoting nic -" i've nvr use a single word of vulgar language in my everyday conversations."
Ok, so wat does that prove? that he's of a much better character than someone who uses vulgar language mildy? that he carries himself in a more respectable manner? i dun think so. do u? or r u one of those that will go "hor..............u used a bad word"

pls la, grow up...................its like such a kiddish statement.

quoting an everyday conversation:
guy 1: "er xy, that lecturer said that e midterm test will be pushed forward by a week"
xy: "wat the fuck?"

i'm sure there are other ways of expressing ourselves but i'm juz saying that sometimes mild usage of vulgarities is tolerable in our lives. its sometimes serve to alleviate some of those frustrations that plagued us in our everyday life. hence its usage can be justified. i wan to be myself, be able to express myself freely. that's y i dun wear a mask on my face when i talk to gals to impress them. i dun purposely behave veri well n unlike myself in front of them cause there is no need to.

i juz feel that in life, we shouldn't put up too many boundaries n restrictions around ourselves. they only serve to constrict the space that we can express ourself freely in. Its like saying any form of gambling is not tolerable..........cause gambling will lead to big debts etc etc. but wats wrong wif betting 2 - 10 bucks on 4-D everyweek? wats wrong wif playing a simple game of mahjong wif frens? its not like we play hundreds of dollars. only tens of stuff. of coz they can lead to more greed but i believe everyone should noe their limits. So in short, lets juz be ourselves n do that things that we feel good abt. =) its 601am le, i should go head for bed. Tata.

slacking

hehe, been slacking since e start of e holidays......nowadays got plenty of time to go read ppl's blogs n stuff. came across adrian's blog. oh dear, his last 3 entries were so sad can..............i reckon something horrendous muz haf happened - (muz haf broken up). Its a bad time of e year i guess cause simon broke up wif yiting after 3 years plus....... 真是祸不单行. n so did zhiliang.

*hugz* to all of u guys k? suddenly i'm flooded by a lot of 感触 again. hahaha, i'm always so emotional n full of feelings. I remed that during secondary school when i chatted wif Lifang over e phone occasionally, she mentioned that i'm blessed wif a veri special ability to feel a lot...........to feel wif my heart. But having this ability also meant some tradeoffs r inevitable. At times of my life, i find it veri hard to restrain n control my feelings. i wonder if it has brought me more good or harm.

i think throughout my life, i've been blessed wif a lot of frens. Having great frens around my side is something that i nvr had to worry abt. They seem to come so naturally n easily to me. its been veri evident during my sec school, jc as well as army frens. Even my msn frens like sheena, shuping and yuanli are fantastic ppl to be around wif. as well as my wonderful frens in cn5. Frens haf became an integral part of my life, in fact they haf already become a part of myself i guess. Something which i'm veri grateful cause a good environment of frens actually do a lot of my personal character building.

ting mentioned last nite that i'm veri good at consoling ppl n making them feel good abt themselves. hehehehe i hope n i'll do my best to spread e happiness that's in my heart n soul to e ppl around me. to infect them wif lotz of love n happie times, to make a difference to their lives.

happiehappiehappiehappiehappie

heheheh, wat a wonderful day i had. Started wif a wonderful lunch wif ting at holland v thai express. e food there was superb (recommended by alice) n great value for money. hehehe after tt i went to jp to meet up wif my frens n took cab to school to play soccer. Soccer was great, had a good work out n felt veri good after some running. Then went for dinner at jap restuarant in west mall. hahahah came home n taught xz how to play dota. totally shacked out liao. somemore juz reached home from supper wif matt, minjie, nic n yh. ooooooooooooooooooooooooo i love my life. *hugz*

i muz say i'm one lucky fella to haf so many close frens around me. i appreciate u guys lotz ya? my life will be so different w/o any one of u ppl. hehehe love all of u lotz.

moving on

i'm in a veri happie mood now. =) finally relieved a big burden that is causing myself so much pain. finally let it go...........

Life's so beautiful...........so many surprises await me in the future. =) i feel a veri strong sense of happiness in my heart. ok, so excited cause tml me n ting going to somewhere nice to haf lunch together. =D hahahaha u guys enjoy urselves ok? After 11am todae, u guys can finally breathe easy n put this tough exam period behind us. Hehehe, we shall haf a lot of fun this holidays! cheers.

=)

hehehe, finally update my blog again. =) think i'd put that song up for quite a few days so i took it down cause i heard a lot of complains abt how lag it affects my blog. Paiseh ok? its meant for someone special :)

thx a lot for e support u ppl show for my blog. i haf to admit i realli haf no mood to blog nowadays. like wat sheena n i were discussing last week, sometimes when u blog too much u start to feel that a part of u is lost. think for this short period of time, i will like to keep my thoughts to myself, to be alone in that aspect. =)

take care during e holidays guys. love u all lotz.