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my recent entries haf been relatively short........hehe now quite late le but was thinking of putting some of my thoughts on my blog.......

was at 1 of my mini class outings when i heard tt one of my guy fren is attached again when onli a short while ago he broke up wif a fren of mine after abt 3.5 years of r/s. tt time he sounded so down n now only after like 3-4 months he's happily wif another gal...........WTF.

sometimes we are deeply affected by certain things even though we still look normal n behave normally. e truth is some of these things still do hurt a lot n persist until god noes when. for me, it seems to manifest into a severe fear of loneliness.............. recently i've been veri afraid of being alone at nite, being stuck with nothing to do............. cause times like these will hai me to go hu si luan xiang somemore. even these mild types of loneliness seem unbearable to me already...... but wat more can i do....... actually mostly its because of school reopen, everyone seems to be getting busy wif their work n stuff..................sigh i guess its inevitable =(

most of e times i feel like talking to ting ...................... but she's asleep. sigh, sometimes realli badly wan to talk to her so tt i won't feel so alone in a sense. or times when i wan to find someone to chat wif..................... they r always busy n haf no time for me............. either tt or they juz chat a few lines wif me n tt's practically it. so most of e time, i'm still alone n feel lonely. i hope time will makes things better. =) soon..................................