my well wishes =)

made an effort to go to bed earlier juz now cause i've been sick recently.....couldn't seem to fall asleep though therefore was lying there wif a thousand thoughts running through my mind... in e end i decided to come online............ so here i am blogging.

one of my good frens has juz got attached =) congrats!!!! i feel so happie for u. hehehe ya i'm envious =p. that explains my blog title ----------- well wishes for this r/s of his to be lasting n loving.

holidays ending soon............this blog has been kinda half dead for a couple of months already. actually its hardly because i'm sick n bored of blogging but rather i decided not to blog too much cause my inner thoughts r all still veri negative. in a sense its good not to blog abt negative thoughts..........so tt i dun reiterate those thoughts to myself in a way. actually this blog is actually symbolic of myself...........symbolic of my inner self...........half dead......i think appropriately i will use e description trudging along...............along wif e flow of time.....

=) actually a lot of ppl noe me as a person who's happie, jokes a lot, in a way intelligent n helpful in a sense. kinda e standard mould tt ppl see me in.........
i wonder if i'm a strong person.............. i think i am .................. cause i was able to let things go n head on wif my life ........... n not look back.........

came to realise actually happiness has varying extents as well. surprisingly........ ya i'm veri happie wif my current life situation now. i feel good hanging out wif my frens n doing e things i like to do...... but i realise that tt's one extent of happiness .................. so do i feel happie now? ya i do feel happie. but strangely amidst this happiness, i occasionally feel another kind of emotion..... it juz feels that i'm incomplete.... shrug, so can i still be veri happie even though i feel incomplete? i dunno, helplessly.

i rem a moment in my life of which i realli felt i was e happiest guy on earth then.......... it lasted roughly 10 mins............... i'm glad during then i told myself to cherish every single second of it.... for tt short moment validated my existence in this world..............it was a feeling that i felt for e first time in my life, i felt complete then .............. maybe i juz haf to trudge along n hopefully tt feeling will come back again someday. =)