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juz reached home after lab todae.......................tired....................no energy cause i only ate two paos at e canteen during lunch break due to a severe lack of appetite.


sigh............
i'm veri disappointed wif myself.......................e biggest disappointment i've ever felt in my life yet. i dun noe how to describe tt feeling -------------------- rotten to e core................last nite i realised i've made a mistake tt i might regret for e rest of my life.

xy asks xy "oh no, wat haf i done?"

was so sadded last nite i couldn't sit up liao........................so went to e bed n cried n cried...........then ting called. we chatted for almost an hour. didn't chat much anyway cause i was so upset she was juz holding on to e phone. after tt she went to sleep n i did my work. then went to sleep but feeling better i guessed. i looked at e clock n it was 5am already n i need to wake up at 730am

can't bring myself to forgive myself yet. guess tt will take time........................................................
i hope u guys dun probe any further as i've already shared this entry wif u guys + i'm already feeling bad enough. i need time by myself..........................to be in a corner n be alone by myself.
i can't stay happie all e time so if u guys see tt i'm down or wat, juz leave me alone.............
i can feel this shearing pain in my heart for making this mistake. Tt's y i've blogged it down to remind me n remind me nvr ever to make tt mistake again.